It's amazing how quickly bitter can turn into friendship. It was like he hated me. Our conversations were cut short everytime by his evident discomfort. Our looks were glares that could pierce each other's souls. It was horrible. I could barely stand fighting with him, let alone not speak a word to him for weeks. I felt so alone when he was gone; as if I was missing a part inside of me. I'm not saying I'm reverting to the past, but he's family after all. I can't stand to let something like 9 years go down the drain over something so stupid. So he finally, after fighting with himself about "someone" comes into my work the other night and breaks it to me. I figured as much really 'cause he can't usually go more than a week of us not talking. So I took off work early and we talked down at the docks for awhile about life. It was encouraging and also sad. I talked about college and he sort of shrugs it off. Like it doesn't matter that he isn't probably going to go. I find it horrible that one person can change another's life so drastically. I mean, this boy's life is stopped for another, literally.

On the other hand I've finally got my bank account back up and I'm only 800 away from my computer. I still need to get the $1,200 from my uncle and I still need to buy a motor this weekend for my 240 which will cost around $400. Hopefully I can get my computer before school starts back up 'cause once it does I'll have zero money coming in really.

Also, thanks to all the people that I've talked to as of late. They've taught me about addictions and just things in general. Thanks guys.

-Andrew

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So far work has consumed my life. Subway is a great job really, I mean I get free food anytime, but damn do I work WAY too much. It's good though seeing as I need a new computer.

Aside from this I have just depleted my bank account buying a $140 arbor for my mom, $600 for my sister to get out of debt, and $400 for my car. Yay for depletion! So I guess this means I can push my computer buying back 2 more months. Huzzah

Also, friends are just never there anymore. My co-workers and I hang out but I am indeed missing those close friends that I never see.

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I'm chugging down the rail of DA in full pursuit of stardom, ha. I've just got to know some great guys and gals here as of late and been lighting up the forums. It's a real nice place. I'm loving it more and more each day.

I found this place DailyDeviants which is just amazing for those who need recognition It really just gets those unappreciated artists that need that spotlight to get the starter. [link]

I've been sort of here and there with my internet usage. I go to Fark or other sites that just consume my time till I get tired of it.

IMPORTANT!
If any of you know of any artists from the 90's or just single songs that you loved please comment and tell me. So far I've got a pretty large list. Please do comment though and thanks!

Bye

It's all in the eyes
The reckless way we dream to die
Our past is our future
The present lies
Somewhere between our hearts and minds
For those with no future
We'll touch hands on the street
Smile and keep moving on towards the heat
So keep this a secret our lot in life
They are elephants we are mice
We'll walk this earth somnambulant kin
With broken hearts that cannot mend
Losers first and second men
We'll do our best to blend in
You could reach out for my hand and i yours
Deliver water to soothe the burn
We'll drink our tears and thirst for more
It's our lot in life
They are elephants we are mice
So keep this a secret
Keep this a secret
We are mice

This is one band I can listen to for hours and never get bored with. Due check them out.

I'm definately going to participate here more and more. I find some cool people, along with amazing stocks. Hopefully I can make some good friends!

It's hard being new at something, especially at something as enormous as DA. I guess I just need to make a name for myself out there in the millions of people...however that is impossible. I guess I just need to make friends. Anybody up for it!? lol. By the way, if anyone reads this, could you tell me how to make my ID appear or the featured deviation...